A second post for today ! Shocking !

Since my two year old has my tablet confiscated I am going to write another post! He is watching old cartoons on netflix so hubs can play COD (Call of Duty)...which is fine, but it leaves me without my writing thing. lol Thing as in tablet! Lately I have been on fire with inspiration to finish my book, which CAN be a task when you are trying to keep a toddler from getting into disasters, clean, cook, do domestic crap...and of course, work part time. I am at 43xxx words, a little over half way done! Who knows if my book will be worthy of publishing, but this is the MOST I have ever written or come CLOSE to finishing a story. Writing has always been a passion of mine, I wrote stories when I was a child. I have kept a diary since I was 10 years old...and now I am hoping to become a published author in the next few years. HOPE is the key word here. I don't know if it will ever happen, I might just get rejection after rejection, BUT, I'll never know if I don't try. Worst that can happen is I have to self publish, which nowadays really ISN'T that bad. There is a whole new network of blogs and online author groups who self publish and are successful at it. SO I have hope, even if it just means I get to have a copy of my OWN book sitting on my shelf. Or two copies, or three...okay maybe ten. Writing is one of my true loves. It acts like one too, a love that is. It gets me mad, makes me want it, takes me to bed late, I hate it, I miss it, and best of all, I can't live without it. I have went from 15xxx puny words in the beginning of November 2014 to what I have now. NANOWRIMO really helped me this year, even though I didn't make it to the 50xxx words to get my badge for this year...it kick started me and my fingers haven't stopped typing since. Never before have I been able to focus on ONE story, usually I skip around and thats why NOTHING ever gets finished. I also became part of a local writers group and they have helped me immensely, even if it was just to keep me going. It has been inspirational! I am giving my pre-pre-pre-pre beta reader story to a girl in that group for review, I really think I am ready for some feedback. I am hoping it won't be too scary, I told her to be gentle, I still have to finish this thing. Ha.

After the Holidays

Running around like a crazy person is over and done with! Holidays are over for awhile! Even thought I LOVE them, they always bring drama and some sort of family crisis, so I am never sad to see them go. Half the time I want to kick their ass out the door before they even get started. Too bad that's basically impossible! Two things:

 1. Not pregnant. AF came 2 days early and pissed me off. Yay.
 2. I have hope for this month! Even if it IS month 7 trying, even if it IS cold as freak outside and that makes me not in the mood...I will try my darndest to get the "right" time... Come oooon baby dust!

    I realized that IF we were to get lucky this month, my due date (DD) would be Oct 4th. That's right before my sons (Oct 11th). I think that would be fun, having two pumpkin babies :) If that DOES happen I am so painting their butts like pumpkins and taking a photo (or 100) of them!! I just really need to keep positive about all this. That's what I keep repeating to myself, stay positive! It can be hard when many of my friends I was pregnant with the first time around are now closing in on their #2's due date...I have three baby showers in the next 2 months...I am very happy for them, but at the same time I am my own worst green eyed monster. I can't help it. I don't think anyone can who keeps hoping and wishing it was THEM pregnant too. Ah well, I don't believe anyone who says its NOT hard to be surrounded by prego chicks when you want to be too. lol Lets hope I can have a big Valentines Day reveal! Fingers crossed~